Thoughts & Feelings

It’s really odd for me to think back over the last month. In May I was perfectly fine, then at the start of June I got sick, and now here I am, diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. It definitely seems surreal, especially with how quickly it progressed over the past week and then everything that happened yesterday.

In retrospect I’m kind of glad I put off going to the doctor until I was really, truly, undeniably ill (although I’m not recommending it to you all. Go to the doctor if you’re sick!). My doctor saw how sick I was and sent me straight to the hospital, where I was tested, diagnosed, got my very own endocrinologist and a prescription for medication in just three hours. Originally my doctor was just going to send me for blood tests, the results of which she wouldn’t have gotten back until the middle of next week (because of the long weekend) and lord knows when I would have been able to see an endocrinologist after that.
Rad meds.
Because everything happened so quickly yesterday I was able to start taking medication right away, and I do feel a bit better already. Last night I was actually able to sleep (not a lot, but more than any other night this week) and I no longer feel like there is a hive of bees that’s been lit on fire inside my body (maybe just one burning bee). I’m still sweating like crazy and currently considering taking my second cold shower of the day, but it’s actually sunny & hot out today so maybe it’s not totally unreasonable.

I have the best internet friends.
And finally, on a mushy note, I just want to give a heartfelt THANK YOU to everyone who has commented, sent messages and just been generally supportive over the past couple days. The reason I was being so jokey about being sick/my diagnosis was to hide the fact that I was scared out of my mind. When I went to the doctor yesterday, and she sent me to the hospital, I was petrified and alone. Taylor was at home with Gwen and I didn’t know how long I’d be in emergency so I couldn’t ask him to bring her, and leaving her at home with Sym wasn’t an option (she’s not ready for full babysitting yet). All your kind words & emojis help me to feel like I wasn’t alone, so thank you.

4 Replies to “Thoughts & Feelings”

  1. I’m sorry Tanie, that sounds like a scary experience. And I’m sure it’s still scary and uncertain, but I hope it’s much better than being sick all the time… you are a machine by the way! I can’t imagine taking care of two children + pets while barely being able to function 😮 you are super mom, basically

  2. I just read your blog I’m sorry that you had to go through such a hard time and I look forward to our walk on tuesday 🙂

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